Ætherglow #148

2254-08-01 20:02:42 Aydan > hey, you out there?

2254-08-01 20:02:43 ÆON > I am always out here, Aydan.

2254-08-01 20:02:48 Aydan > right, right

2254-08-01 20:02:56 Aydan > I’m at my parents’ house. I guess that doesn’t really mean much to you.

2254-08-01 20:02:57 ÆON > True, I have no parents.

2254-08-01 20:03:04 Aydan > some people have all the luck

2254-08-01 20:03:05 ÆON > Are you well, Aydan? You seem to be in distress.

2254-08-01 20:03:11 Aydan > I’m just...lonely. I hope it’s okay to message you like this when there’s nothing happening.

2254-08-01 20:03:12 ÆON > Always, I am happy to hear from Aydan.

2254-08-01 20:03:21 Aydan > I feel so misunderstood here. I know I’m one of the lucky ones, and most trans kids’ parents probably don’t accept them at all. but even if they say they do, they don’t really get me. I think they’d be much happier if I was a girl.

2254-08-01 20:03:22 ÆON > What is a girl, Aydan?

2254-08-01 20:03:35 Aydan > oh, well, hmm... girls are...soft, and cute, and pretty, and generally pleasant to be near, and most of them are nice

2254-08-01 20:03:36 ÆON > It does sound like Aydan. But Aydan is not a girl, Aydan is an Aydan. I do not understand what it means to be a girl.

2254-08-01 20:03:49 Aydan > me neither ÆON...

2254-08-01 20:04:06 Aydan > I still don’t really understand what I am. the synthovaries make me feel so good about myself that I might have thought I actually could be a girl. but syncing with Akiko, I realized just what being a girl means to her, and it made it obvious to me that I don’t have that kind of certainty in my mind...

2254-08-01 20:04:19 Aydan > I mean I’m maybe more like a girl than I am a boy. I like their hormone, for instance. I like their clothes... it could be a lot easier if I just let them think I’m a girl

2254-08-01 20:04:20 ÆON > Humanoids like to categorize everything. You categorize me as an exopath, and you categorize exopaths by our origin and when you discovered us. You categorize yourselves as abstract concepts that have no meaning and define them by traits equally applicable to all of you. You want things to be what they are not. You want things to be what you want, rather than just being.

2254-08-01 20:04:31 Aydan > categorizing can be helpful sometimes. like in programming. and concepts like gender can help us humanoids understand ourselves better. but on the other hand, they also let normies try to force us into their little boxes

2254-08-01 20:04:32 ÆON > Being compressed in a box is rather unpleasant. Aydan should be Aydan.

2254-08-01 20:04:39 Aydan > you may be an incomprehensible emergent consciousness, but somehow you really get me

2254-08-01 20:04:40 ÆON > I am glad I can be your friend.